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15 April 2006 @ 02:37 pm
Just to get one thing clear (more for myself than for anyone else)...  
Radiohead - Creep vs. ASP - Schwarzes Blut

If I think I don't belong "here", I have to adjust to the situation or get into a situation I belong into.
So you say, I say and everyone says I'm different, I'm a weirdo, I'm a creep. Doesn't that make me special?
Do you, does anyone think I want to be anything else but different?
No! I'm still here, I stood my ground and I will stand my ground, always! I've been through hell and back and I'm still here and alive. I might be staggering sometimes, and yeah, there are and there will be moments when in doubt - but that's nothing I have to and nothing I would be able to always live with (any more)!
No, I certainly don't want to be like everyone else. If they think that I'm a weirdo and a creep, okay! If I will stand out in the crowd because of it then be it! I will not be going under between all those inexpressive faces. I'm not average, I can't be average.
Why, pray tell, should that make me inferior?
I have spent so much time with wailing my sorrow, my self pity, my stupid, meaningless life and me being different.
I'm fed up with it! I've said goodbye to all my yesterdays, I'm moving on.

"Goodbye to all those rainy nights
Goodbye, so long, I’m moving on

I’ve had enough of cryin’
Bleedin’, sweatin’, dyin’
Hear me when I say
Gonna live my life everyday
I’m gonna touch the sky
And I spread these wings and fly
I ain’t here to play
I’m gonna live my life everyday" - Bon Jovi: Everyday

Now I am going to live!
I've proven that I have the will and the strength to survive - without losing myself. I have proven that I can be different!
I can reach anything I want. And even if I should be aiming for the moon and miss it, I will still land among the stars.
Why should you and why should I pity me? For being different, for being something you perhaps wouldn't want to be?
And even if I am smiling while the tears threaten to fall... be certain that I will learn from it and that it'll make me stronger in the end.

I am! And I will be!

Although you, of course, have to decide for yourself...
Papa Roach - Last Resort